This comes from Devotional co-editor Sean Norris.
He told me all that I ever did. (John 4:39, ESV)
What do I really want? What would make me feel better? How would I even know when I had it? In the midst of an aching feeling that there’s something missing, that I want something and don’t know what it is, I ask myself these kinds of questions.
Sometimes I think it’s an Audi R8. I know it wouldn’t solve my problems, but it might help. Other times I know it’s something more profound like freedom. While it is definitely true that freedom is something I crave, freedom just sounds abstract. The answer that seems to connect most, that I’ll find myself saying out loud, is “I just want to go home.”
The funny thing is that I have muttered this to myself when I am home, just sitting on the couch. I know it’s not a physical location, but rather a belonging, a kind of acceptance. I want to be in a place of rest, where I am fully known and fully accepted. Being with my family in my house is certainly the context in which I feel this more often than not, but there are plenty of times when I do not feel at home in my own home, in my own skin even. When I feel like this, there is nowhere on earth I could go that would make me feel like I belong.
This is where Jesus surprises us, just as he did the woman at the well. He surprises us because he knows who we are and what we’ve done, and he stays with us.